after work sitting in 742 just eating some chocolate chips. My key now works for 3 apts. I’m officially friends with my leasing office and know them all first names basis. Bringing them donuts on Friday because they’ve been so accommodating through this shit show. I mean granted it is their fault the unit flooded … Continue reading Seasons change but our hearts stay the same

Tonight challenged me. I had a discussion w Ellie on the phone where she talked about how she watched me become destroyed w how Matt treated me. Safety. What I deserve and how she’s seen me disintegrate. That I’m less able to be there for her. I apologized and took responsibility. I also feel defensive … Continue reading Conflict with friends

its saturday night and Im slowing down for the first time since august 30th. The transition of summer to fall is one of my favorite times of year. The brisk air, cloudless sky in georgia. the lift in the humidity. Today it actually felt like fall. 60s this morn. I read on my roofdeck. I … Continue reading happy libra szn

I got back from europe on thursday. im still buzzing and inspired from my trip. There is so much in motion for me right now in all areas of my life. it feels so damn good. I will sign my agreement with work asap, and i have been in discussion navigating next steps. Sebastian almost … Continue reading 9th accident + a flood… bonus lives, pls

its early. and by early i mean before 7am. Ive never been an early riser. at times in my life ive tried or convinced myself to work on shifting my routine, but in actuality i function at a much lower frequency in the mornings. I wonder if its related to cortisol being high and my … Continue reading Morning post

And She’s back babbyyyyy Sitting at a cafe drinking a cappuccino smoking a Winston in Paris on a Wednesday afternoon. Just did a little shopping. Ordered some chocolate mousse. It feels so good to feel human again. The pats of me I that tucked away for so long. I finally believe in it all. It … Continue reading Sex and feminine

It’s my last morning in Corsica before I fly out to Paris. I spent last night by the water with a whole pizza and a few glasses of red wine looking out over the water. The woman next to me is originally from Ajaccio but spent the last few years in Marsalis. She told me … Continue reading New layer, how ya doin

I just don’t know it yet. The internal shifts in our lives come through when we least expect them. The blank page just turns. The expansive conversation happens when we stop searching for meaning. When we exhale into what is. When we see someone else for who they are truly and fully. When we stop … Continue reading It was my best year.

I’m standing in a handicapped bathroom in France after my flight from Atlanta before I take a hopper to Corsica. I took half of a klonopin to sleep, but I actually feel pretty rested. I woke up about an hour prior to landing and put on Holly whittakers book- quit like a woman. Many of … Continue reading jetlag on a handicapped bathroom floor

its midnight and im 3/4 of the way packed for corsica. As it turns out, packing with one hand is extremely humbling. My burn bubble popped last night. I let it happen naturally despite it being so damn enticing - lol. why is it always pustules, pimples, blisters that get me. one of my gross … Continue reading Packing and Reflecting