I have started to put more intention into everything I do and how I do it. Its caused major shifts in almost every dynamic i have in my life. with people, with my space, with how i show up to work.. even with my kitty. I spent the last several years in a fear state. … Continue reading Intention
At 30 years old, I am finally learning what it is I need to thrive and feel good in my own day/energy. Im sitting in bed naked the day after thanksgiving. face peel finished, legs shaved, conditioning treatment in, writing and reflecting. I had a late morning cup of coffee with steamed oat milk from … Continue reading Learning how to take care of myself
forgiveness is the undoing of a fear based belief system . letting go allows for expansion control leads to suffocation loving others is paramount , but being in and loving your own energy is the most important narcissistic traits lie in people pleasing and in control trauma cannot be healed in the presence of the … Continue reading Gratitude, Grief & Guidance
I learned how to emotionally regulate myself.. recalibrate. come to presence, fully. Created my own daily happiness. I can turn the hardest days into pure light. music, smells, the space, movement. i dance, sing, decorate, paint. I light up a room when i walk in and create as the human sunshine. (literally my nickname at … Continue reading My growth in 2022.
chatted today with an instructor about how to create your own light. She says she has watched me become happy. she says the entire time shes known me since i started in 2020, she hasnt seen me happy. that made me sad momentarily, but it got me thinking. the truth is, REAL light - comes … Continue reading shining brighter
I wasted so much time wating for a path to appear. I didnt realize that paths are made by walking, not waiting. In the waiting our shadows take a chokehold on us. I waited 3 years. for answers. to forgive. In my own self pity. for some way that matt would provide me with internal … Continue reading walking the path
playing victim keeps you stuck. i did this for 6 years (or really maybe all of my life ). Absolutely post infidelity and the entire time i had gastroparesis. life keeps kicking us in our asses until we learn. I didn’t listen to the whisper. It took a 4x4 to the head. this has been … Continue reading Victim v Empowerment
fire- light- softness. I knocked a lot out on my to do list today. i was exhausted from this week so I leaned into rest. my anemia has been rough so i have been doing iron injections, but wiped woman over here. I scheduled the dentist and OBGYN before i lose insurance jan1. egg freeze … Continue reading Scorpio Szn
Literally figuratively metaphorically. - Africa for a yoga retreat. Booked and locked in - Denver is happening and I’m so excited. It’s cutting edge and I get to be a fucking leader in ketamine therapy. The owner is so perceptive to my thinking and energy. I feel so lit up from the Inside out. I … Continue reading Makin moves
Last night I sat on the floor of my third apartment unit and ate ben and Jerry’s phish food with my fingers. Lol this is 30 baby. When one of my digits would get cold, I switched to the next. I only ate about half of the pint. And as you could have guessed, … Continue reading moving > critical mass.